i fear death

dying is inevitable
we're all going there, that's our ultimate destiny

but i fear death... i fear dying helplessly and alone

i just watched united 93 on video last night
what happened to the airline pasengers were terrible
my single brain cell just cannot comprehend it
how they had to suffer in the hands of their hijackers
how they had to call their loved ones to say goodbye
how they had to fight back bec in a matter of minutes
they knew that they are all going to die

there was a joke circulating in the email before... something like this..

doc: sorry, wala na kong magagawa. may taning na buhay mo.
patient: gano katagal po doc?
doc: 10
patient: 10 months
doc: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6 ....

would i want to know when im going to die? NO.
i'd rather live my life as normal as it can be. no waiting for the axe to come my way.

shucks! im so morbid...

sound of life: you raise me up
feeling: down