a few more days to go and its christmas. as usual, i'll be celebrating it away from home. for three years in a row, im doing just that so i can say that im getting used to it.. its kinda lonely sometimes pero isip ko na lang na its just one special day. parang ang layo ng 'pinas para di umuwi noh?
eniweys, i can get by being alone.. as long as im not lonely. a lot of my friends or should i say almost all my friends will be here this christmas too. so technically im not alone but im not sure where and with whom they are going to spend this day with. well, im not even sure kung kaninong friends ako sasama. dami nag aaya eh haha im torn between friends.. kelan kaya ang torn between lovers? hmmm
so to all my friends who's asking me, help me decide kung kanino ako sasama... madali lang naman ako ma-convince, just play santa for me.. here's my list:
. tennis bracelet
.. pda mobile handphone
... shop til i drop
.... a european trip
eto, siryus na:
..... peace of mind
...... good health
....... get in touch with lost lost friends
a beauty queen wannabe's wish:
........ world peace
so easy dba? may matupad kaya? im not naughty naman and i'll be nice.. yan naman ang gusto ni santa eh :P
seriously, all i want for christmas is to:
......... find love and not fear it
i would trade everything i have in this world just to have it...
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Monday, November 06, 2006
A Psalm of David - Psalms 23
The LORD Is My Shepherd
1
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
1
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
just ranting...
i have been meaning to write this for a while. its not because i dont have the luxury of time to do it. heck! i have all the time. i just dont know where and how to start so i keep on postponing it.
i just feel tired.. moving on then going back to step one. i feel tired.. of adding you and deleting you and adding you again on my messenger.. if you're wondering which one are you now, yes, you've been added again. until when, i dont know. perhaps until i have the guts to delete you once again. i just hope that when i did, there's no more turning back. its the end. game over. for now, let me allow myself to see you online and torment myself.
friends asked me whether we're talking or whether we're friends again. yeah, we're talking sometimes. somehow, i cant control myself from talking to you. but are we friends, i dont know. im still pondering on that. do i wanna be friends with you? is that what i wanted? if i would listen to what my foolish heart is telling me, thats not what i want. you dont wanna know what it wants. i dont even wanna know what it wants.
you said you still like me... what was my reaction then? i cant remember.. but if you're wondering.. that statement alone has put me in limbo once again. and if thats one of your silly games then you succeeded and won.
you said you wanted to see me... how i wish i can see you now.. how i longed to see you.. if you ever wonder how i much i have missed you.. well, now you know.. i missed you this much..
you said one of the first things that you would do is to cuddle me... i also wanna feel your tight embrace once again. but i have to control myself from saying it. coz in the end i know i will just regret saying it. for i know that you're just saying it not to please me but to please yourself. please, the least you could do is to show some respect for me. i told you a thousand times. i am not like that. if it would make you feel better, i have never let anyone get close to me after you left not even when i was still going out.
for now, i'll just hug you tight in my dreams. because i know that us we're not real.
there in my dreams, i can say all the things i wanted to say without regretting anything.
there in my dreams, i can hold you tight and wrap you in my arms.
there in my dreams, i will shed no tears and feel no pain.
i just feel tired.. moving on then going back to step one. i feel tired.. of adding you and deleting you and adding you again on my messenger.. if you're wondering which one are you now, yes, you've been added again. until when, i dont know. perhaps until i have the guts to delete you once again. i just hope that when i did, there's no more turning back. its the end. game over. for now, let me allow myself to see you online and torment myself.
friends asked me whether we're talking or whether we're friends again. yeah, we're talking sometimes. somehow, i cant control myself from talking to you. but are we friends, i dont know. im still pondering on that. do i wanna be friends with you? is that what i wanted? if i would listen to what my foolish heart is telling me, thats not what i want. you dont wanna know what it wants. i dont even wanna know what it wants.
you said you still like me... what was my reaction then? i cant remember.. but if you're wondering.. that statement alone has put me in limbo once again. and if thats one of your silly games then you succeeded and won.
you said you wanted to see me... how i wish i can see you now.. how i longed to see you.. if you ever wonder how i much i have missed you.. well, now you know.. i missed you this much..
you said one of the first things that you would do is to cuddle me... i also wanna feel your tight embrace once again. but i have to control myself from saying it. coz in the end i know i will just regret saying it. for i know that you're just saying it not to please me but to please yourself. please, the least you could do is to show some respect for me. i told you a thousand times. i am not like that. if it would make you feel better, i have never let anyone get close to me after you left not even when i was still going out.
for now, i'll just hug you tight in my dreams. because i know that us we're not real.
there in my dreams, i can say all the things i wanted to say without regretting anything.
there in my dreams, i can hold you tight and wrap you in my arms.
there in my dreams, i will shed no tears and feel no pain.
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