on getting older

a few weeks from now and i'll be going home to the philippines to visit my family once again, some of them i haven't seen in two years. incidentally, the day that i'll be going home is the same day that i'll be celebrating my birthday.

that's something that i dont really really look forward too.. for one, i'll be on the road/air for half the day. and then, i'll be getting old. let's face it, it may just be numbers but it still adds up. i may look young but i have to act like my age, dress like my age. think like my age.

what's worse is that i have to face the nagging questions of relatives and friends about my non existent relationships. its like a time bomb waiting to explode.. with them acting as the human timers. the hell i care, right? but i do, im worried about them worrying about me because really, there is nothing to worry. i haven't find the one but it isn't my fault... i may be better of as single than be miserably in love just like people i know.

i maybe cynic and guarded when it comes to love but who can blame me. i have never met a guy who will make me think and feel otherwise. maybe when i did, it would be like flying to the moon and back to earth.. but for now, i'll keep my feet firmly on the ground.

well, going back... turning a year older when on your 30ish is a lot diferent that getting a year old when your on your 20s.. if your single, its way different and if your single with no kids, its way way way different.. now, the biological clock is ticking and the pressures to get hitched is everywhere. ayan, nabalik na naman ako sa previous topic ko... why can't i steer away from this?!

ang hirap maging adik!

i've been nursing a cough for quite a while now.. at dahil dyan, kung ano ano at sari-saring gamot na ang iniinom ko. may vitamin c, 3x a day. may cough syrup, 3x a day. may antibiotic dn. at may robitussin candy pa as frequent as i can. wala pa dyan ang isang litrong orange juice na iniinom ko sa ofc at sangkatutak na tubig. pagdating sa bahay, orange juice at sangdamakmak na tubig pa dn. lagi tuloy ako nagpupunta sa cr.

at di pa dyan natatapos ang litanya ko, nakakahiya sa ofc ang pagubo ha.. di biro yan.. malayo pa ko alam na ng mga kasama ko na parating na ko.. daig ko pa ang naka megaphone at kulang na lang matanggal ang ulo ko sa pag ubo. hayy.. kakapagod.

kahapon, habang nasa opisina, nararamdaman ko ang pag init ng katawan ko. oy! ndi naman sa nag-iinit ako ha.. init ng fever ata yun.. bsta, pagsandal ko, naramdaman ko na lang na sobrang mainit ang likod ko. kaya maghapon na lang akong di sumandal o dibah?! hanep sa logic.. bawal kase ako umuwi at kelangan ko magbawi dahil sa ang dame ko na absent at undertime last week. kelangan ko namang magpakitang gilas dis week dba? kaya ayan, kahit maysakit at malalim na ang mata ko.. trabahong walang humpay pa din..

ngayon nga andito ako sa office habang hinahangin ang mundo ko sa sangkatutak na gamot na nainom ko kanina... feeling ata nito inaalagaan ko sya kaya ayaw akong iwan! hayy...

not something to blogged about...

i've been too busy lately, i forgot to update my online journal for a long long while.. so many things happened the past few weeks. nothing major though..

i got my pr approval/card and new contract last april.. so, that means im going to stay.. for a long while here.

i had a falling out with a friend.. again. not the same with the one i blogged before. but we patched things in a mature way. no heated arguments, no discussions. nothing. we just let the bubbles fade away. hopefully, this time around, we're good.

my parents and cousin visited here. went to a few places they've never been. and they got their long time passes to stay here also. as if they would noh?

and now, i got my air tickets to go home again in august.. in time for my bday.. actually, on my bday.. so, i'll be on plane on my bday. first time! haha

oh i forgot, im sick nga pala.. but nothing to worry.. its just a simple cough.. but the simple cough is like a hika.. so, lately, ako ay isang adik!!!