Friday, September 14, 2007

my grand vacay

for more than 2 wks, i lived in my homeland and slept on my own bed, in my own room...

i spent time with my family, playing with my nephew and niece, shopping with my mom and sister, going out with the whole family... well, ofcourse, that excludes my other brother and his family. i missed them too. but i know that they could not go home.

one thing is sure though... i will visit them.. but not sooner.. coz i want to spend some more time with the kids back home. i want them to know me the way my nephews in NY do. i want to be there for them when their parents could not. i missed them so much!

oh well.. enough with the drama.. let me tell you what i did..
- i get to experienced the flood at home for a wk.. lucky for me, its just in our kitchen and only during the morning. the water will subside by lunch time.
- i had a hair cut and new perm
- i visited churches
- dined out with family
- celebrated my bday with them
- played with my pamangkins
- shopped till i drop
- met with friends
- outing with family
- saw and cradled my day old niece on the day of my return trip.. sayang, i was not there on her binyag :(

but mostly, time was well spent with family...

going home and finding one

i wrote this last august 9, on the plane.. while on my home..

... has never been easy. and i am always looking for one.

let me tell you my story...

my family resides in the philippines. my elder brother was the first one to go and work overseas. i saw him only once every two years eversince he started working and that was in 98 or 99.

i lived with my eldest brother and his family since college days. my parents are in the province and my brother was renting an apartment in qc which is near our work. we do go home to my parents every weekend, sometimes every other weekend.

a few months after my sister went overseas, my eldest brother found an overseas job also. i got stucked in the philippines, i decided to visit my brother and his family. little did i know that they're preparing for another yet far away place to live. i remember him telling me not to pursue my plan working overseas for a while.. as my parents will be left alone.

but just a few months after they left, i found myself embarking on a journey just like them. of course, i didnt obey my brother, its just a wishful thinking and i know that he didnt mean it at the time.

that left us a scenario like this: - parents - resides in the philippines- eldest brother, wife and 3 kids - living in NY, no plans of going home yet- sister - living in ireland, with once a year vacation- elder brother, wife and 3 kids - living in dubai, with once every two years vacation- myself - living in singapore, with lots of vacation... i wished!

we're scattered around the globe. i may have seen them all last year except for the elder brother but its different when you grew up so close to each other. but that's why, they invented chatting online.. the wonders it can do to our relationships..

i am writing this on the plane.. i'm going home for vacation.. and there, i will see my parents, my sister and my elder brother and his family.


postscript

i am back here in SG and moved to a new house with the same housemates. my sister is in ireland now and my brother and his wife in dubai. however, the kids are with my parents. they will be staying there for a while. which means that i'm going back home again... sooner! yipee!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

some things to blog about ..

i wrote this a month ago.. i know it's a bit late to post but i will anyway...

friends come and go... but true friends remain and stay...

last week, i have been contemplating on letting go of a friendship i had grown so attached with. i've been having some issues with a friend for quite a while now. issues that seem to resurface every now and then.. i guess, we both are. you see, we're close.. and that seems to be the problem..familiarity breeds contempt, thats what people say. and that may be true for us.

for a while, we're not talking and then we'll talk suddenly without even discussing what happened. its ok, the fist time. its ok, the second time. its even ok the third time.. but the fourth time, its hell. its like small matters become big stuffs. its tiring. so, i've decided to let go. BUT, its kinda different letting go of a friend than a boyfriend. and i found myself between letting go and holding on.

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a few days ago, my friends decided that they need to prepare something for me. it is my birthday today. and they wanted to surprise me. and surprise i was. for everyone's invited. though some we're not able to make it to the big party ever! did i just say partee?!?! there were online invites, cake, decors, singing, lotsa food and friends. the kapuso, kapamilya and kapitbahay were all there.

the party was organized by my housemates. who then contacted all my friends. maybe not all because they dont know all of them. but they tried i guess. everyone brought something, aside from the gifts ofcourse.

what's funny though was that all along i had a hint that they were trying to do something. they asked where will i be on that date and not to do anything. they asked me to hear mass with them so i wont be around at the time that the guests were arriving.

they told me that there will be a party at the house. that some officemates of one of my housemates will be there 'coz they wanted to see the house and swim. that's their reasons why they are preparing lotsa food. but now i know, they cant hide so many things from me hehe i even helped them chopped the veges, clean the house and even went with them to the grocery haha

well, aside from the occasional whispers i caught them.. it gave them away i guess. after the church, some of my friends were also at the bus stop going to house. they hopped off the bus, same stop as ours. my housemate decided that we have to make a stop at the nearest grocery while the others didn't come with us. when we arrived home, i've noticed that all the lights were off.. how could that possibly be when all the others went ahead of us.. something's fishy.. i knew then that there really was a party.

i went inside, turned on the lights.. and surprise surprise! the others were there too.. i didnt expect that so many people. i expected that all the close friends will be there, but officemates, na-da.. so, i was.. surprised after all!

i lurrve all the gifts by the way! and of course the efforts :)