going home and finding one

i wrote this last august 9, on the plane.. while on my home..

... has never been easy. and i am always looking for one.

let me tell you my story...

my family resides in the philippines. my elder brother was the first one to go and work overseas. i saw him only once every two years eversince he started working and that was in 98 or 99.

i lived with my eldest brother and his family since college days. my parents are in the province and my brother was renting an apartment in qc which is near our work. we do go home to my parents every weekend, sometimes every other weekend.

a few months after my sister went overseas, my eldest brother found an overseas job also. i got stucked in the philippines, i decided to visit my brother and his family. little did i know that they're preparing for another yet far away place to live. i remember him telling me not to pursue my plan working overseas for a while.. as my parents will be left alone.

but just a few months after they left, i found myself embarking on a journey just like them. of course, i didnt obey my brother, its just a wishful thinking and i know that he didnt mean it at the time.

that left us a scenario like this: - parents - resides in the philippines- eldest brother, wife and 3 kids - living in NY, no plans of going home yet- sister - living in ireland, with once a year vacation- elder brother, wife and 3 kids - living in dubai, with once every two years vacation- myself - living in singapore, with lots of vacation... i wished!

we're scattered around the globe. i may have seen them all last year except for the elder brother but its different when you grew up so close to each other. but that's why, they invented chatting online.. the wonders it can do to our relationships..

i am writing this on the plane.. i'm going home for vacation.. and there, i will see my parents, my sister and my elder brother and his family.


postscript

i am back here in SG and moved to a new house with the same housemates. my sister is in ireland now and my brother and his wife in dubai. however, the kids are with my parents. they will be staying there for a while. which means that i'm going back home again... sooner! yipee!