just for today

just for today... let me be happy
and keep you mine
whisper those endearing words you used to say
and i so longed to hear
knowing that tomorrow when the sun rises
you wont be within my reach
you will be gone to the world you call your own
and i would be a glimpse of a memory you call your past.

just for today... let me hold you
and keep you mine
let's pretend that everything is ok and i am the only one
hug me close to you and make me feel safe on your tight embrace
and just dont let me go
let's not worry what the future might bring
because we both know that when it concerns us
there is no future and forever has its end.

just for today... let me love you
and keep you mine
let me be happy knowing that you're holding my hand
let me hug you and whisper those words i so longed to say
lets pretend that nothing matters except the two of us
let me hug you... and have this day
even if it would break my heart into pieces
knowing you cannot reciprocate the love i have for you.

and at the start of the next day
let me kiss you goodbye
wipe my tears away and go
walk away from me
and dont ever try to look back
because i wont be there anymore
i asked for a day and i got my day..
that was yesterday!

untitled

here i go again.. affected. hurt.
even if i dont have the right.
even if i conditioned myself a thousand times that its over. its all over. i've moved on.
even if told myself a thousand times that anything that concerns you, i could not care.

i was ok. in fact, i never have thoughts of you for quite a time now.
you never get in touch after the last time we talked.
unknown to you, you left me in limbo once again.
but i picked up the pieces fast as a speeding bullet.. so, i thought im ok.

now, myself betrayed me.
i heard not from you.. but from someone who knows you.
and everything you told me the last time
went crumbling down..

if there's one thing i learned from you..
that's not to expect anything from you.. not at all
and i am right, thats why im affected
you haven't changed after all.