on writing

why do i write when i feel bad? is this my curse? i want to write when i am filled with joy too.. but sadly, i was never happy lately.

i should have written this a wk ago. i had a falling out with a friend. actually, i just decided that i dont want to talk to him anymore for fear of hurting him. i hope he's ok now. i dont want to dwell on it, on him. im just not ready for anything yet. sometimes, i just want to be alone and have time for myself.