ewan ko ba. alam mo yung feeling na para kang napapag-tripan? ganyan ang feeling ko kanina. at ganyan din ang feeling ko after some time na mag-break kame ni super ex. napag-tripan lang ako. sana wala namang pustahan di ba? o kaya kung meron man, sana sinabihan ako.. baka sakaling nagka-pera pa ko. pwede naman akong maki-ride diba?
ewan ko ba. dikolam kung san ko naman nakuha ang idea na ganito. my imaginations sucks big time. imagine, mag-i-imagine lang din ako, yung pangit pa. masyadong pessimistic. pero ano naman ang magagawa ko, ganyan ang feeling ko ngayon. ang hirap i-divert ng isip into something positive. kase kahit anong isip ko, it wont never happen. it wont never worked. it didnt work before, certainly, it wont work this time. before, wala akong kalaban, distance lang. ngayon, may iba pa. so, how on earth, it can possibly work???
ewan ko ba. dikolam what im really driving at. dikolam why am i writing again when i've told and written here a number of times that i wont. i just want to pretend that really nothing is happening. which in fact is the truth.
ewan ko ba. sana i can always be deadma like this in front of him. as if it really doesn't matter. pero sabi nga ng friend ko, affected daw ako. cguro nga, kse if not, i wont be writing about this, or him, over and over again. pero mas ok na 'to, kase naman ipunin ko lahat until it piles up. i dont want to find myself suddenly exploding, and worse in front of him. he really doesn't need to know everything. its enough na affected ako behind his back. iits enough that i can just pretend na i really really dont care. hayy...
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